Worship/Church
Mood:  chillin'
Now Playing: Third Day- The Wire
So tonight at churc was just a big worship service. My friend Andrea came with her worship team from Huntington University (she's in the choir), and they led a worship service for us. But not only did we have that but of course the church had to have their own. I don't see why the people from Huntington couldn't have just led for the whole night but oh well. You can never have enough worship music I guess... I could have the listened to the guest people, but I don't really like the churches worship, to me it just seems like a big show, and it kinda drives me nuts because I don't see the heart. I can see the heart in it in some people but most of it just bugs me. But alot of things bug me so I guess this is just 1 in a million things that bug me. I need help with that, but for now I'm not going to change my thinking, and I think they need to find the heart of worship because some of them are just not in it. It seems like to them you HAVE to sing be worshiping, and you HAVE to lift your hands, and clap to be into the worship. For me I'm not into that, I get more into worship when I'm playing my guitar, not when I'm clapping, and whatever. It's different for everyone we all worship differently, but you shouldn't look down on someone cause they're sitting down, or not singing....(someone told me I was too much like a bump-on-a-log in church and they had no right to tell me that cause worship is a heart issue not on how high you raise your hands or how loud you sing, or how long you stand, just kinda ticks me off).
Anyway, now that I got out have a good night. I need to get some sleep.

My night
Now Playing: quietdrive - Rise from the Ashes
I played euchre with my family and some other people tonight. It was fun I won 2 games, and lost 2 games. I'm not much of a game player, and I could really care less if I win or lose but it's fun for the other peopel so I do it to make them happy, and try to be nice during the whole thing. Cards just aren't my thing, but I'll make an exception for euchre.

Change of Thought?
Mood:  quizzical
Now Playing: Planet Shakers - How I Love You
So.... I put on some Planet Shakers(worship music), and started to play along (the tabs come with the cd) on my guitar. Then I realized how much I love to do this, not just for me but for worship. The more I play the better I feel, it relaxes me, kind of gets me into my own little world of worship. It's the best feeling in the world, and it gives me well... peace. Then it got me thinking how much I liked to play on the youth worhsip team, and how it was fun like so long ago. I don't remember all the crap that went on, and how it sucked to play for the adults and that it was so nerve wracking because when we would play for the adults it just SUCKED. But in the early days before playing for the adults, or when we would just play for fun, and remember that one time we played Agnus Dei over and over during practice? That was awesome. I want that, I want to play like that, for the reason I was playing, for the same purpose with the same meaning. So that got me to think about the Hub worship team... I just don't know, maybe I'll only feel this way playing on my own, but still... Argh, I just don't know right now, I think I need something to just outright tell me what to do (but not anyone that wants me to join).
Anyway, if I don't join I'll most likely still enjoy playing by myself, I need to do it more, not just for practice but for me, and for God I rarely talk to Him, and this is one way I can express myself.
Well, that's my thoughts for now. I'm just going to think about this. I want to do what's right.

I'm so tired
Now Playing: Did you feel the mountaisn tremble (even though I don't like this song)
I want a day where I don't have to worry about anything, that would be awesome. A day where I do what I want, when I Want without having to worry about tomorrow, and what I HAVE to do, but just think about what I WANT to do. That would be great but it's just a dream, dreams don't come true, and I'll just have to get through the craziness of right now. It will be over in about 6 weeks, so I think I can make it. As soon as school is over with for a while I'll be fine cause all I'll have is work, and that isn't stressful or mind boggling to me. So c'mon May HURRY UP.

YO
Now Playing: The Fold - Gravity
I got a Myspace page now, so I'll probably only post there. I have some weird videos on there too. www.myspace.com/pointlessramblings

I like it more than Tripod cause I just do. There's alot more stuff there than here.

Sarah

What's Happening
Mood:  a-ok
Now Playing: Jeremy Camp -Right Here
So I went to Aquire the Fire this weekend. Lets just say getting lost for an hour, cutting in front of a trolley then running a stop sign, running a red light, and passing the same house 4 times was majorly fun.
ATF was pretty great though, probably the best one yet because it actually had meaning. You know? It seemed like the other years it was just a big show or an advertisement for how great the next year would be. But this year it had focus, and meaning, not just a bunch of hype (even though there was plenty of that). Hopefully non of the people who went will just go from there knowing what they know and throw it aside but will actually do something with their lives.

I'm on spring break, and I slept in to 12:30. It was really nice especially after my sleepless weekend. I cleaned alot last night so I don't what I'll do with myself every other night. I guess I could go into some extreme cleaning. Dust, vacuum, scrub, all that good stuff. So much fun, and so little time.

Tomorrow and Yesterday
SO tomorrow is ATF, and yesterday was Josh's B-day. Want an eventful week. Spring break has just started for me, and I am so happy cause I need a break.
I should go start packing but I really don't feel like it so good night.

A Simple Prayer (for me and my friends)
Lord give us peace in our lives, strength to live each day, and courage to break down our walls. I pray that we will grow in You, learn from You, and draw closer to You each day. Thank You for all the things you have done and will do for us. amen.

Epiphany
Mood:  a-ok
So last night I was looking at my Ben's (my oldest brother) website, and I realized something. He's married and is traveling all over the place. So if he can do it anyone can. Don't think that just cuz you're married you won't get to go off and have fun, and travel. You just have to find someone who will want to do that too. Not that traveling single isn't good, but that's not the only way you have to go. So don't think just b'cuz you get married you're stuck in a rut, and have to do what they want too. You can go anywhere, and do anything whether single or married. It could just be more fun if you're married cuz you'll have someone to share it with, I dunno. But I figured that, and thought I will share it with other people like me who think you're tied down and would have to do what your spouse wants, maybe they want to travel and do the same stuff as you. Don't be so closed minded like me I guess.

Also I have a major headache so I came home early, I'm going to try to rest before I go to work, and hope it goes away.

I need to get a hobby
Mood:  lazy
Now Playing: Rascal Flatts - God Bless the Broken Road
I play the guitar, but I don't really want to do that on my own anymore. I dunno I guess I get tired of things quick and need something new to challenge me. I wish I could just find something I'd like to do for a long long time. I do want to get better at the guitar, but I don't feel like taking out a book, or getting something to teach me cause it costs alot. I wouldn't mind learning some awesome fingering, but *sigh* how often do I have the time to do learn this stuff. Maybe someday I will, but not right now.

I'm sitting around right now watching some tv. I have a major headache inbetween my eyes, and there's nothing good on at this moment. I would like to watch a movie, but the ones I want to watch don't come out on dvd until tomorrow, and I don't want to watch what I have.
I could see what my friends are doing. But then if I go somewhere that would require getting changed, and putting my bunnies away, which is a big hassle cause they never want to go back in their cages. I sound so pathetic, but hey, that's me. I guess I'll turn up the music and clean.

Nobody calls me, and I never answer anyway.